Everything is so boring.....

O.O

Everything is so boring....
Games..... lol, steam games..... no mood to play....
mobile games.... half give up status.....

Watch anime is good...
but..... not ready to do....
something stop me out.....

my barrier.....
Depression barrier....
I am so sad and lost....

Why ....

This world is so unfair....

If I born in another country or new life ....
should be better right?

My future is so hopeless

Help ...
and please
Any miracle happen to me....

I want this world reset....

There are so many people in the past created some rules to follow....

People always follow the flow where people goes....

Some people become more aggressive.... Due to their proud of success....

But some people suffer depression.... Due to compare and challenges....

I am one of the victim......

If you compare me the whole world...

I accept I am weak and useless....

But in some situation....

I have confident to get at least....

A pass......

I am so sad.....

These people playing others emotion...

Some nice people compliment me....

I am welcome.... Some people think I am good too....

?

Only current stage....

They overcome me with no reason...

Different people to judge/marking....

Make my feeling so bad....

Ask the world.....

What is the standard?

If all the teacher not allow me to....

Why I get through all these?

Tell me why?

I don't need you...

I will become the king of the world....

Those non sense judgement need to be clear....

With all my year studying.....

I am so depressing....

Many disappointment of me.....

Every time....

But I did not blame anyone....

I just speechless

What it is happening to me right now...

The coronavirus is like a slow bomb

Feel like the world is separating and tearing....

A fix feeling want to reset the whole world system...

And want all proud ignorant people....

Have a big load to them....

Maybe everyone feel like I am selfish...

But of you think of my situation...

You know what I am doing....

Hate this world so unfair.....

interest in recent

Still playing Project Tokyo Dolls

Shiori. Waifu forever

YouTube: 

https://youtu.be/U0WnZ66MuD4

12/02/2019 Sick and worried

Fever 37.7....

My breathing is like someone hitting me....

Although is not very hurt... But that feeling is bad...

Tomorrow morning go to see the doctor....

Hope I get well soon

Not sure..... is that a virus

O.O

I never leave Australia, travel..... anything...

study auditing this semester....
We have a break on new year and Australia Day...

Every news are saying coronavirus

Our class, one student from China.....
Not sure she traveled China in these period...

At 3rd Feb, our last class before exam....
She cam up.....
Even she sat opposite table....
but she sat very near to me....
If she affected... I am in danger...

Around Thursday night - Friday morning 12am....
I felt something is not wrong to my body....
I thought
just tired..... or something....
something weird on feelings..... (like heart break <-- sad feeling)

7th Feb, study group with classmate
One of the classmate said he traveled China..... (Not confirmed...)
I am not sure they are saying a joke or something....
But he cough in our study 11-1 pm

I went back home before 3pm...
and play Ring Fit adventure.....
Made me feel better?
and Hyper...
After exercise my body feel so good...

8th Feb....
today....
I think nothing special in morning...
But at night....
felt a bit hot.... and feel like i am mastering something....
I got 37.0 after dinner....
And 40 mins later 37.3...

Not sure  I am in danger...
Lucky me....

My Depression

O.O

So many things make me depress.....

Even in entertainment....
Watch movies, anime and gaming.....

No mood to play.....
and lost interest.....


This new year.....
Please give me a better life.

Year End

O.O

Holidays always make me feel bored.....

No too interest on games.......
Want to watch anime......
but..... too tired?

Nothing to do... just searching and finding stuff.....
So boring..........................................................................................


Need a meaningful life..............
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