if this is the problem

I suddenly remember a few years ago, my sleeping dream,
tell me that I can't say this word anymore....
In today and "This is Shirley Ho o.o"" this post,
I used this word....

My dream said to me, don't use this word,
because it will lost a friend.....
I don't know why....
my dream looks like can tell my future...

I heard one passage is about....
a experiment is about dream,
the experiment found out our dream show our future in 2 second
someone said our life is gave someone control,
like God, so, we may not control by myself....

if this is the problem, I may know it.....
Shirley Ho, is this word??